Dear Santa,

All I want for Christmas is.. happiness.

Even if it is without my 5 years of relationshipness backing it. Because last night his new girlfriend and he (how highschool is this)... called me last night and let me know that he doesn't have the balls to tell me he doesn't want me, but she does.

Good thing one of them does right?

Jesus loves me still. So. I'm crumbling, crying, and trying to not die.. oh, and working & trying not to answer the phone sobbing. Just. Need. To. Get. Through. Today. Tomorrow shouldn't be this rough, right?...

I doubt it... but. I had counseling this morning. :) that glorious lady.. she held my hands & prayed with me.

So. Pray for peace for my heart. So I don't rip out his & cut his balls off, because apparently he doesn't know how to use them.